The doctor announces, "He was near death when he came in." A sobering fact. I sat in the emergency room trying to grasp this message. Thinking shifts. I almost lost my son. Anaphylactic shock. Unknown cause. "We may never know," a health practitioner added. How do we all live with this possibility? Without realizing, fear of death may restrict the joy of living. Until we have more answers, living is cautious. Carefully measured text messages: How you doing? I love you. Do you have your EPI pen on you? I have awakened from a slumber. Each moment is precious.